Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Final Part 1

              Last year I was going home with my sister and my two friends. Before we were waiting at the bus stop where the incident happened, we ate at a pizza place. The pizza place was called Little Caesars. When we entered there was a smell of pizza. We ordered a large pepperoni pizza for 5 dollars and four small drinks. We got sprite and coke for the drinks. After we were done eating, we were looking around K-Mart for a few minutes. We bought some chips at K-Mart and finished eating it on our way out. We decided it was time to go, so we headed towards the bus stop in front of the store Ross.
              While we were waiting, it was very hot. My sister moved her hair out of her neck, however while she did that there was a homeless woman behind her. The homeless woman wasn't even near my sister, but started telling my sister that she should apologize to her for putting her hair in her face. The woman said, "Hey stop putting your god damn hair in my face." My sister and the rest of us were confused to who she was talking to because we weren't even near her. Even those around us were confused. When my sister asked her, "Are you talking to me?" The woman replied, "Yes! Who else?" My sister said, "I'm not even near you, what are you talking about?" The woman started throwing a fit about how the wind and how my sister was removing hair from her neck was bring the hair to her face.
              The woman then started to say, "You better move your behind, or else I'll move it for you." I was really angry but I didn't do anything because she was a homeless woman and she probably had a mental problem which is why she thinks my sister put her hair in her face. However, my sister on the other hand didn't take that she was going to move her behind very well. My sister replied saying, "If you even touch me, there is going to be problems. You can try to touch me but we're going to have problems then." My friends and I were shocked about what my twin sister said because the woman was just a homeless person and she probably had mental problems. The woman started to mumble some stuff I couldn't make out.
               The bus started to come. We were getting ready to get on the bus, getting our money out and bus cards. There was one thing that made me very, very angry at what the homeless woman said. Before we were going on the bus, the homeless woman screamed, "Go back to China, where you came from, you don't belong here!" This made me angry, I completely forgot about the fact she was homeless and probably had mental problems. I was going to turn around, but this man was kind enough and blocked my way and told me to just get on the bus. There was another woman there and I think she got very angry because she screamed at the homeless woman saying, "Shut up!" When we got on the bus, we were all baffled at what she said to us. There were many reasons why I was angry because I wasn't Chinese nor I wasn't born out of states. I was born in the United States and I was Korean, so who was she to say those things? She wasn't even from the United States either because she African American. What she said also attacked her. I just didn't understand why she resorted to racist comments. Now days we still see her at the same bus stop, so we avoid that bus stop to avoid trouble.

Friday, February 27, 2015

Descriptive Essay


             What I did the past three weeks was staying at home and sleep. Two weeks ago I went to Six Flags Magic Mountain. There was a very fun atmosphere and everyone was happy. It was a bit disappointing because we only rode three rides. The three rides that we rode were Tatsu, Full Throttle, and a ship ride. I think that the ride Tatsu was very scary and I loved the ride Full Throttle. I went with my church members to Six Flags Magic Mountain. Towards the end I had a bad experience when I was at Six Flags Magic Mountain. While we were going back to the car I fell in the parking lot and hurt my head and scraped the whole right side of my body. I also got scraped on my left hand. After we got into the car we went to go eat at Soup Plantation. I went to the restroom at Soup Plantation to clean up my wounds. Afterwards I ate a salad and chicken noodle soup with bread. It was hard to eat since I was in pain.

                On Christmas Eve I spent it with my dad. We didn’t really do anything but eat together. I usually eat in my room but we ate together in the living room. On Christmas day I went to my cousin’s house with my mom. We ate crab stew, however only my mom, Lindsey, and I were there, eating. My cousins went out for Christmas dinner with my uncle’s side of the family. When they came back we got our Christmas presents from my cousin. For my Christmas present I got a 50 dollar gift card for Forever 21. My twin sister also got the same thing for her Christmas present. I wanted money for my Christmas present, but I guess this was okay as well.
          
                 For New Years there is a Korean tradition where you get money for New Years. For New Years my twin sister and I got 210 dollars each per person. I got 60 dollars from my mom and I got 50 dollars from my aunt and uncle. I got an extra 100 from my dad. After that I stayed at home and slept and played games on my computer. During the last week of winter break I always slept at 4am to 6am.

Monday, January 26, 2015

Virtual Selves

            You have to be careful about what you say online. There are things that online community offer that the actual community cannot offer. An Internet create identity affects our actual identity. The individual should prioritize his real life family instead of his fantasy life-living in a virtual world can create a sense of equality, free from prejudice and physical limitations.

            The online community can offer you a new life that you wanted, while as the actual community cannot offer. "Creating screen personae is thus an opportunity for self-expression, leading to her feeling more like her true self when decked out in an array of virtual masks." (Turkle, 147). The online community can bring out the real you, express yourself in ways, you never wanted to in real life. You can construct your identity in an online community. "While MUDs are not only "places" on the Internet in which to play with identity, they provide an unparalleled opportunity for such play. On a MUD one actually gets to build character and environment and then to live within the toy situation. A MUD can become a context for discovering who one is and wishes to be. In this way, the games are laboratories for the construction of identity." (Turkle, 153). The online community can offer new experiences for people. The online community can also offer virtual gender-swapping, but is not simple to maintain being the opposite gender. "One one level, virtual gender-swapping is easier than doing it in real life. For a man to present himself as female in a chat room, on an IRC channel, or in a MUD, only requires writing a description. For a man to play a woman on the streets of an American city, he would have to shave various parts of his body, wear makeup, perhaps a wig, a dress, and high heels; perhaps change his voice, walk, and mannerisms. He would have some anxiety about passing, and there might be even more anxiety about not passing, which would pose a risk of violence and possibly arrest." (Turkle, 155). The online community can help you be who you want easier than in the actual community.

            An Internet-created identity affects our actual identity. "The psychological effects of life on the screen can be complicated; a safe place is not all that is headed for personal change. Stewart came to MUDing with serious problems, and for Stewart, playing on MUDs led to a drop in self-esteem. MUDs did help Stewart talk about his troubles while they were still emotionally relevant; nevertheless, he is emphatic that MUDing has ultimately made him feel worse about himself." (Turkle, 154). The online created identity can change your real identity for worse. "From Stewart's point of view, MUDs have stripped away some of his defenses but had given nothing in return. In fact, MUDs make Stewart feel vulnerable in a new way. Although he has hoped that MUDs would cure him, it is MUDs that now make him feel sick." (Turkle, 154). When you try to be someone who you are not on an online community cannot help your actual identity in an actual community.
         
           An individual should prioritize his real family and community over his fantasy life because his fantasy life is not real. His real family and community is who he really is. An individual should draw a fine line between his real life and his fantasy life. "People can get lost in virtual worlds." (Turkle, 159). Some people don't like the idea of an virtual world. "Janet, 23, a secretary at New York law firm, is very upset by her husband Tim's sex life in cyberspace. After Tim's first online affair, he confessed his virtual infidelity." (Turkle, 158). In the fantasy life you could feel emotions but they are not real ones. Involving in engagement with his or her family and experiencing emotions are the real emotions. If you don't prioritize your real family and community, you may lose them and can never get them back. In the fantasy community you can leave but it will still be there for you and you can get it back, but you cannot get your real family and real community back.
 
            Living in a virtual world creates a sense of equality, free from prejudice and physical limitations. In an online community you can create a mask and that can help you fit in the online community thus free from prejudice. "A MUD can become a context for discovering who one is and wishes to be.” (Turkle, 153). Living in a virtual world can create a sense of equality because everyone wants to be different but they all have the same mind set. “The anonymity of MUDs gives people the chance to express multiple and often unexplored aspects of the self, to play with their identity and to try out new ones. MUDs make possible the creation of an identity so fluid and multiple that it strains the limits of the notion. Identity, after all, refers to the saneness between two qualities, in this case between a person and his or her persona. But in MUDs, one can be many.” (Turkle, 152). In the real community there is not equality and you’re not free from prejudice and physical limitations.

               What you say online can affect you. Saying things or posting things online can affect you, your life, and who you are. “As more and more students turn to websites such as Facebook and MySpace to chronicle their lives and socialize with friends, they also are learning that their words and pictures are reaching beyond the peers for whom they were intended. And some, like Guinn, are paying a price. In the past few months, college, high school and even middle school students across the USA have been suspended or expelled, thrown off athletic teams, passed over for jobs, and even arrested based on their online postings.” (Kornblum and Marklein, 163). Posting person stuff can put you at risk. “To teens and young adults, social websites are private spaces where they can interact in the open, multimedia style of the online world in which they grew up. But to adults, these sites are places where kids are naively putting their reputations and futures – not to mention personal safety – at risk.” (Kornblum and Marklein, 163). There should be a limit to what you could say and you could post.
             
                There are things an online community can offer. The online community can also affect you in different ways. Saying certain things or posting certain things can get you into trouble.